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It feels like it has been an absolute eternity since I've been here.

It hasn't all been well, and I suppose there's bound to be disappointment depending on the way you look at things. I'll try to keep it short.

My wildlife major did not work out. All those symptoms I talked about before? They never went away and eventually got worse until I was able to pinpoint a few things and make some tough decisions.

After much consideration, I dropped the 2 wildlife courses and kept my 3 others, and changed my major to MA. I was doing well in one course, doing well in the online course, and absolute shit in the rest of them (I was technically attending 7 classes.) I didn't have time to study for them because I was too busy with the rest of it. Something had to be done, or else I would have outright failed 4/7 of them. That wasn't my only problem. It destroyed my health. I got to the point I didn't really eat much of anything. I continued to feel like throwing up all the time. I figured out that I was suffering allergies from the trees and the "materials" in the wildlife class which made me feel even more crap. I got to thinking about my future, what I wanted to do, what was available to me, and my current situation and what I wanted to be able to do now. Even if I did survive, I would have to move to get a job. Period. Then get a job that might not last 3 months, then I'd have to look for something else to do, and move somewhere else. Depending on the situation, I'd have to work for someone who had a permit to work with a certain animal, and then eventually be able to get my own permit to do the same. And then move again. The solid jobs are taken and those who have them aren't letting go. Even then, most of the openings I saw online wanted someone with a 4 year degree ("preferred") - not a two year. Then they all wanted me to do a tremendous amount of volunteer work in addition to studying, etc. How was I supposed to be able to do it all? I also didn't want to earn something and not be able to use it. MA will allow me to get caught up in life. It may be just as hard, but it's the exact opposite in the job search compared to the other degree. Local and reliable. I'm sticking with it regardless.

It took a while, but I've gotten a bit back to normal health-wise. Those first tests (well, one of them) I got a shitty score on, but I've done well ever since. I was able to catch up and perform the way I needed to, and more importantly, to my own standards and everyone else's. I have some damage control to take care of now though, but I've added another online class that will start as soon and the one I'm taking now ends (which is next week.) I'm not as worried about getting everything done in just 2 years like everyone at the school is. I'm going to go at my own pace even if it takes me a little over 2 years (which is what I'm aiming for now.) I actually know several students who only have one or two classes left over before they get their degrees, but because it's only one or two, they can afford to partake in part time jobs, etc. I'm beginning to see the dark side of the moon of what the school expects and tries to accomplish and what actually happens. Again, it's completely different than what the summer semester was like, and not even close as to what the GED was like. But enough about that.

I still don't have any friends there lol. And the people I knew from my wildlife courses will part ways with me at the end of the semester. So I get to start new next Spring. I'm actually really excited about it and wish it would get here already.
I'm really really really depressed at times, but I did get the new Smash Bros. game so that's keeping me "distracted" when I can get around to playing it. You'd think people at my school would play it, but... nope. They're all too busy with card games I guess.
If I can get a good connection, I can actually play online and can do it quite well, so if you want to swap friend codes we can.

Not a soul offered to help at my dA group. I'm about 1% away from being done with it. I don't have time for it and apparently no one else does either.

My art is nonexistent.

I'll try to check back a couple times before I have to get back at it. We're currently "on break" but there's a lot of deadlines soon as well as the next tests, plus it's the online class final and then the start of the new one to try and catch up a little.
Thanks for wishing me a happy birthday. It feels like it should still be July. I can't remember my birthday. I know I had pizza, but it feels like it's been so long ago, or like it didn't even happen. It was cool, but I can't help but have that feeling that it was one of the worst birthdays I've ever had. I was just miserable and I still am kinda. I just gotta keep breathing.
  • Mood: Miserable
  • Listening to: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wFsSmoH9lxY
This has been the longest week of my life.
I haven't had much time to think, which has wrecked my state of consciousness. Not only is there the shock of being away from home, but also I haven't been able to actually study like I used to which makes me extremely nervous. The summer semester is harder, they said. It'll be easier in the fall, they said.
I've felt like I've had the flu all week. Aching muscles from carrying the 20+ lb. bag nearly everywhere I go. Aching stomach when I wake up, when I eat, and when I go to bed. If I could get away with it, I thought, I'd just bend over and puke my guts out and get it over with.
Tuesday night felt like it had been 2 weeks. Thursday night felt like it had been a month. I'm reeling, and I have one day "off" left to finish going over and doing the things I need to before Week 2 starts. I can't even begin to describe the shit I have to do, and I don't have time to, either. I have to write an essay for my online class and then get some sleep so I can refresh my math tomorrow and read in my Biology book, and write out a schedule. That made me feel a bit better. But I cannot express enough how extremely overwhelmed I am. This isn't funny. Go ahead and call me weak or whatever. I'm going to try and last as long as I can, but reality hit me as hard as it could this week. I don't have time for anything else, and everything else seems like a joke. I might have enjoyed it if I had more time to think it over. More family issues are arising while I'm away, too. Plenty of them. I'm practically helpless in that regard. I feel like I can't do anything for anyone right now, and that's the worst feeling.
but I have to hurry now. I just hope I can get what I need to do done, otherwise Week 2 is going to be a repeat of Week 1 with dire implications.

Oh, and my birthday is in 3 days and I don't even care.

You may never hear from me again.
Hello, deviantArt. It's been a while, hasn't it? Let's catch up, because I surely don't have time to rummage through everything.

:bulletblack: I've done little art whatsoever since the last post with the exception of some of the things I did in art class which wasn't really an art class. I want to make some stuff before I have to go back to school, though. If I can get around to it is another story.

:bulletblack: I'm not going to respond to months-old replies, because by now they're a bit irrelevant. I can answer everything here.

:bulletblack: I crushed my first two classes in college, getting an A in both, overshooting the threshold in Art and my lowest score out of 100 in English was 92. I'm very surprised with my results, but felt like I could have done even better to be honest.

:bulletblack: I'm disappointed that people don't try as hard as they should, especially when they don't have anything better to do like I do. As they told me when I first walked into the classroom, it's your life, your results. One of my teachers told me they wished the others had at least paid as much attention as I did, and that's kind of embarrassing.

:bulletblack: lllol still no offline friends but I have 16 straight weeks to change that soon enough. (I'm going to have a lot of time to mess around on Tuesdays and Thursdays.)

:bulletblack: "Soon enough," happens to be the 18th of this month.

:bulletblack: I'm sorry I've been pretty nonexistent here. I still care about you all a lot, but this may be my only chance to succeed for a long time. I have to do well for the sake of myself and my family, and most importantly, my future. If you need to get in touch, you should know how to do so or find a way to do so. It's not hard to find me.



I have to square away some things before the 18th, so I'll hang around here until then if someone has questions or wants to get in touch.

I'm still playing Pokemon XY too. If I can keep getting lucky I'll finally have a team for once. I finally got shiny Honedge, and then shiny Charmander, the one I've been after for years.

I was happiest in class. Coming home, I came home to all my problems. Class gave me something to do. An objective. Hope. Purpose. I wish I had an extra week off, but it's also felt like eternity since July 22nd (my last day of Summer Semester 1.)
It feels like it has been an absolute eternity since I've been here.

It hasn't all been well, and I suppose there's bound to be disappointment depending on the way you look at things. I'll try to keep it short.

My wildlife major did not work out. All those symptoms I talked about before? They never went away and eventually got worse until I was able to pinpoint a few things and make some tough decisions.

After much consideration, I dropped the 2 wildlife courses and kept my 3 others, and changed my major to MA. I was doing well in one course, doing well in the online course, and absolute shit in the rest of them (I was technically attending 7 classes.) I didn't have time to study for them because I was too busy with the rest of it. Something had to be done, or else I would have outright failed 4/7 of them. That wasn't my only problem. It destroyed my health. I got to the point I didn't really eat much of anything. I continued to feel like throwing up all the time. I figured out that I was suffering allergies from the trees and the "materials" in the wildlife class which made me feel even more crap. I got to thinking about my future, what I wanted to do, what was available to me, and my current situation and what I wanted to be able to do now. Even if I did survive, I would have to move to get a job. Period. Then get a job that might not last 3 months, then I'd have to look for something else to do, and move somewhere else. Depending on the situation, I'd have to work for someone who had a permit to work with a certain animal, and then eventually be able to get my own permit to do the same. And then move again. The solid jobs are taken and those who have them aren't letting go. Even then, most of the openings I saw online wanted someone with a 4 year degree ("preferred") - not a two year. Then they all wanted me to do a tremendous amount of volunteer work in addition to studying, etc. How was I supposed to be able to do it all? I also didn't want to earn something and not be able to use it. MA will allow me to get caught up in life. It may be just as hard, but it's the exact opposite in the job search compared to the other degree. Local and reliable. I'm sticking with it regardless.

It took a while, but I've gotten a bit back to normal health-wise. Those first tests (well, one of them) I got a shitty score on, but I've done well ever since. I was able to catch up and perform the way I needed to, and more importantly, to my own standards and everyone else's. I have some damage control to take care of now though, but I've added another online class that will start as soon and the one I'm taking now ends (which is next week.) I'm not as worried about getting everything done in just 2 years like everyone at the school is. I'm going to go at my own pace even if it takes me a little over 2 years (which is what I'm aiming for now.) I actually know several students who only have one or two classes left over before they get their degrees, but because it's only one or two, they can afford to partake in part time jobs, etc. I'm beginning to see the dark side of the moon of what the school expects and tries to accomplish and what actually happens. Again, it's completely different than what the summer semester was like, and not even close as to what the GED was like. But enough about that.

I still don't have any friends there lol. And the people I knew from my wildlife courses will part ways with me at the end of the semester. So I get to start new next Spring. I'm actually really excited about it and wish it would get here already.
I'm really really really depressed at times, but I did get the new Smash Bros. game so that's keeping me "distracted" when I can get around to playing it. You'd think people at my school would play it, but... nope. They're all too busy with card games I guess.
If I can get a good connection, I can actually play online and can do it quite well, so if you want to swap friend codes we can.

Not a soul offered to help at my dA group. I'm about 1% away from being done with it. I don't have time for it and apparently no one else does either.

My art is nonexistent.

I'll try to check back a couple times before I have to get back at it. We're currently "on break" but there's a lot of deadlines soon as well as the next tests, plus it's the online class final and then the start of the new one to try and catch up a little.
Thanks for wishing me a happy birthday. It feels like it should still be July. I can't remember my birthday. I know I had pizza, but it feels like it's been so long ago, or like it didn't even happen. It was cool, but I can't help but have that feeling that it was one of the worst birthdays I've ever had. I was just miserable and I still am kinda. I just gotta keep breathing.
  • Mood: Miserable
  • Listening to: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wFsSmoH9lxY

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televideoDMB Featured By Owner Aug 26, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
My friend,even though with all the problems you´re having,I want to wish a great birthday with a huge amount of happines and a good life to you aswell bro!:hug:If you need someone to talk to,u know where to find me brother!:D
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GekkouKitsune Featured By Owner Oct 9, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanks my bro :)
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televideoDMB Featured By Owner Oct 9, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
Oh bro!I´m so glad that you´re still there!!!:D
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Ebonsong Featured By Owner Aug 26, 2014
:hug: Happy Birthday!
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GekkouKitsune Featured By Owner Oct 9, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanks :hug:
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rithrisa Featured By Owner Aug 26, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Happy Birthday!!:iconfuncakeplz: :party:
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GekkouKitsune Featured By Owner Oct 9, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you :hug:
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rithrisa Featured By Owner Oct 10, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
:iconaawplz: ;D
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BlueStanza Featured By Owner Aug 15, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks so much for adding my poem "Grandfather" to your favorites.  I'm sorry it has taken me so long to get around and thank you.  DA kept locking my ability to leave comments because it thought I was spamming pple.  Lol.  Anyway.  Thanks again. I really appreciate the support.
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GekkouKitsune Featured By Owner Aug 17, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
No problem. It was really touching, thanks for sharing it :)
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