GekkouKitsune

I've got to go. Gotta leave you all behind and face the truth.



Until we meet again.

Hello everyone.

Things have been bittersweet for me since the last time we met...

Despite what I thought would be a difficult semester for me, I finished with an A in every class again. And I'm kind of famous now. That pressure is going to be hard to deal with.

But the things that were bad only got worse, and nothing ever got better. I lost Grandma late last year. Her condition worsened so quickly. Fate had it that I also was the one who had to tell Mom who had been with her for so long but came home to try and get some rest. It's still difficult. She was a big part of my life and part of the reason why I'm doing what I'm doing now. I wanted to share so much with her. About two weeks after she passed, my picture was finally in the magazine.

And now I'm going to try and graduate this May. I'm taking 8 classes including the part where I go work in the field two days a week. I was going to save one class for later but found out if I waited then I wouldn't be able to participate with my classmates. The sooner the better though, as things are worsening faster than I can better them. My walls are not only covered in mold and trying to take over everything in my room (a lot has already been ruined and thrown out) but now there's new yellow fuzzy growth in addition to water condensing on the walls. The floor is rotting out in places in the house and the lone bathtub is held together by duct tape. The house I grew up in will have to be abandoned. I'm not sure if I can handle that thought right now, but I have to graduate and get a job as soon as possible so I can work towards getting a new place. It can't happen fast enough, but part of me feels like my life, or what I knew as life, is ending. I start the hell that will be 4 months on the 11th of this month. I've been working ahead to try and save time for myself later because it is going to be tremendously hard. I don't care about making A's as long as I pass; there's more to life than that and I am already fighting for my survival. So this is it. If I do well, (and I'm sure I'll survive some way or another, it may not be pretty,) this will be my last semester. College was nothing like what I expected. I still don't have anyone to actually hang out with, and I'm as single as I have ever been. The problems that have plagued me in the past continue to plague me today. But I almost have the tools that will help me dig myself out of this hole. I just have fewer family members to share my experiences with. I have to prepare myself for the future. If I don't start now, I am worried I might be homeless in the future. Tomorrow is not guaranteed. Either of my parents or myself may not wake up in the morning. I will be on my own one day. There is a severe lack of responsibility amongst some of my peers. You have to grab the bull by the horns. I've been told I've been a hard worker but I by no means do everything that I could. I think I'm lazy. I don't try hard enough.


I don't know if I'll make it back here. Does anyone remember me? I don't have time to check up on everyone, the future is fast approaching and I can't stop now. I haven't made any artwork since summer of last year; I never did upload it here. I don't like this website; I don't know if I would even want to upload it here. I do not like green eggs and ham.

Everything is going to change. I don't know if I'm going to be able to handle it. Things are already changing. Have you?

ITS THAT TIME AGAIN

I never really hung around to start with during the break between summer & fall semesters. I really don't have any desire to come to this website anymore. I see it is it's 15th birthday, but I couldn't give a damn if I wanted to. I'll probably still upload some of the things I worked on during my break since its gift art, but I'd never upload anything else to this place especially original art. Not that I even do anything anymore anyway. I have a lot of people here that I still consider friends, which is why I'm writing this and not completely abandoning the website.

My 2nd summer semester went very well. I made A's and had nearly 100 end-of-semester scores for both classes. I was awarded a nat'l scholarchip, a locall scholarchip, and just this past Friday I received another scholarchip. Everyone seems to love me and the fact that I'm doing well, I pay attention and always want to learn and help, and that I'm a guy, lol. I just wish my classmates were more friendly towards me. There's definitely some unnecessary animosity, I can feel it. We're supposed to work together and I want to help in any way I can, but they act so strange sometimes. I'm sorry that I do what I'm supposed to do, I guess.
Even the people who I thought were sort of "friends" never contacted me during the whole time we were off on break. Forever alone.

Fall starts in one week. Now it's time for the good stuff: Drugs, bloodwork, injections, tests, codes. All pretty much require you to have completed something prior, but I'm going to try and mingle with the new students and help them stay positive. I'm not going to be able to graduate next year, but I'm still going to attempt to do all I'm required for fall this time, which is 18 credit hours but only 5 classes so I think I can manage. If not, then that's fine, that'll give me something to do this time next year................

I have to get up at 6AM as I'll have to do from now on, and I have plenty left to do tonight so I better get on it.

I don't know how many of you that are still out there that will read this, but if you did, then... thank you! If not, that's fine too. I just hope you're all doing very well. I'll be back again at least once to upload some things before I ship it off and have to hit the books once more.

I'm active on Flight Rising if you wanna derg
flightrising.com/main.php?p=la…

Today was my last final for the semester. It was my lowest scoring final of my 5 classes despite being o.pen book; 96. As far as I know I'll make it through the woods with A grades in all 5, something I never thought would happen. I dominated the medical classes, picked up and dusted off my "teammates" and helped them to victory, and was voted p r e s i d e n t of the program club, which was a shock and I entered on the last day before the elections. Everybody wanted me to do it, and I kind of wanted it too, or at least one of the positions available... I think this will be an excellent thing for me if I can handle it. I don't know anyone and this will help me build my circle for the future. I still don't have any friends outside of the classroom but I am very involved with the people in them, or at least some of my classes anyway. I start summer in about 11 days, where things get real. I have my scr ubs and stetho/scope and BP thingie ready. I'll be learning how to do a bunch of basic stuff and also some cool stuff like electro cardio grams which is required for a grade. So it should be clear now that I am committed to what I'm doing regardless of what happens or how I feel about it. I just wish I was about 20 again instead of turning 25 this year........


We're in the same position as we were four months ago financially. Dad's trying to hold onto his job, mom is looking, I'm doing what I need to do, and we're trying to deal with our relatives health falling apart, especially uncle and grandma. Grandma's getting real bad in the head, man. Sedentary lifestyles also wreck your health, I'm dying over here trying to learn how to save lives. I think I gained 15+ pounds but I'm getting rid of it as soon as possible.

I've done zero, zilch, zada art. But I plan on doing some over my short break; specifically, this weekend.

I'm sorry I haven't been around and I'll try to catch up while I can. I have priorities now but you should be able to find me if you need to get in touch. Any questions?