Alright. I think I am done featuring people for a while. Maybe for good. I'm glad I was able to do it for the people I did(6? 7? thank you!), but these fun and games just aren't my thing anymore. Seems like I always try to do everything for anyone and get little in return. And I'm tired of it.
This year has been off to a bad start. Last month my house almost burned down and could have all last year really. I was very lucky. The plugin that the clothes dryer was plugged into malfunctioned and melted. Fortunately we stopped it in time but it made the wall turn brown, we caught it just in time, otherwise it could have been very bad. It could've done it any time before that though which is kind of scary to think about. We thought it was the dryer itself that was smelling odd so we bought a new one, when in fact it was that wall mount. We had already gotten rid of the old dryer. So we spent out a lot of money for nothing. At least we are safe, until somewhere else the faulty wiring goes bad and kills us all.
This month my Dad lost his job. He will be able to draw money but it's going to be just enough. But because of that there is no room for mistakes or emergencies. We've already had one. A part in our vehicle went bad, so a chunk of what we had saved up is already gone. But we got lucky again. If it had went out before we spotted it, something bad may have happened.
Why is it always like this. Every year. All my life. We finally start to get back on the right path and the same thing happens again. It's a vicious cycle and in a constant deadlock. My Mom is sad because I don't know anything different than this. I'm tired of trying. There's no use if it's going to happen again. I'm expecting to have to use my savings to pay what bills we have again, or new bills that arise. Who knows, I might get thefted again and take a year to get what little left I have back again. My health has also deteriorated again, I'm just holding on hoping it gets better.
And you guys wonder why I always expect the worst. Nothing ever good happens so I always have to prepare and be ready to face the worst. Don't try to change that aspect of me, I never will.
Art-wise, I still have the contest prize requests to go and a few other things. I am still trying to perfect canine anatomy before I continue with the 1st place request. It gets boring drawing sketches of the same things over and over so I tend to switch to something else to keep my interest going. But if I don't feel good I can't draw.
Though I am glad I have improved. I just hope I don't regress.
Give me your encouragement, if you wish.
Also, if you say you're gonna do something, do it. Don't bullshit around.
Listening to: Naruto Ultimate Ninja Storm 2 OST
Reading: Katekyo Hitman REBORN!