Reading: Homestuck Act 5; Naruto Volume 51; Bleach v30
Playing: Zelda OoT3D: Boss Challenge
Today has just been one bad thing right after another for me, starting from last night. Some time or another, I lost a filling, so this will have to get fixed. Which will be in the morning. Since I have no insurance, it'll cost me a fortune out of my savings..... This particular filling was half-assed anyways, I got it just last year not long after I had my wisdom teeth pulled, and I swear it's because they did something to the tooth when they pulled the other out.. I still have all my original fillings from about 5 years ago and they're fine.
So my Mom then got mad when she learn how much money I had left, even though I've been trying to hold onto everything I can the past few months. She basically told me I need to and should watch my spending (what I've already been doing) and smarted that I should get a job if I'm going to spend money, which we both know I can't get a job right now. She came back to say she didn't mean it that way, but you can't take your words back...
Yes, I've spent money. My last splurge was the 3DS, but I've been saving everything I can since then so I can fill that gap. Since I stopped getting income I've spent about $1,000, but that's been over a year ago and I've had to buy animal supplies and pay bills too. It adds up, I've just been trying to buffer it.
But anyways it made me feel like a useless piece of shit who wastes money.
Oh, but it gets better. My Dad got angry when he learned about my tooth issue, that he might have to pay for it. (I am, though) Yay for supportive parents. Even my Mom kind of got mad about it. I feel like I'm always the issue here.
I wish I could stop there, but it gets even better.
Later that day (today), my Dad calls and tells Mom that something broke with my truck. Something about the brake lines being completely rusted in two and that we were lucky that we didn't wreck before then. My truck is headed to the crusher for some cash if my uncle doesn't buy it back. It was never really my truck to begin with since the idling was pretty messed up, but I'm sad to see it go. We've been on many fishing trips with it.
Coming home I notice one of our cats down the road towards the neighbors, it's the first time since we've had him (since he was born, he's 8 years old now) that he's noticeably been there, and if he keeps hanging around there it's only a matter of time before he gets killed either by their dogs or by target practice... He's big and slow and not very cat-like, that's why I've loved him so much... but I can't stop him or our other 2 outside cats from doing what they want.
I wonder what's next?
My Mom said if they can't do a filling tomorrow that they'll just have to pull the tooth, but it's not as bad as I thought even though I've protected it all day.
Since I'm uninsured I'll probably have to drain $250-$300 on this... Dios mio, money in the bear.
The bright spot in today was that I'm not as heavy as I thought I was, and I'm 2 pounds lighter than my last weigh-in, whenever that was.
I can't make anything with my nerves shot about my teeth. I literally have nightmares about my fillings coming out or apart. When I noticed it last night my hands went ice cold and my stomach got upset and had been for most of this morning.
Fishing cuts into my art time as well.
But I will continue... soon, I hope.
I have something in mind, but I'm too young as an artist to do it.
But I have to get more support here. Otherwise I might stop. Most of the people I got my good, solid support and tips from are absent... So I've kind of lost my way.
This new thing I have in mind might help that, or at least get some more people interested in what I do, whether they want to help or not.
I'll be connecting my fanbases together. You'll see soon enough.
Once things settle down I'll make my announcement. I can't put it off much longer anyways
I'll check messages when I have more internet bandwidth to spare.
So much to go through....
No slowing you guys down, huh......